Hmm. I may have bitten off more than I chew here – at least more than I can chew on in one post. But, we’ll see how this goes. 🙂
So. It’s March 2018 already. I am deep in the thick of my Huge Life-Changing Decision – 7 months in, in point of fact. How does it feel? Well, all-in-all very normal. Once I was able to stop using my GoogleMaps app to find my way around, my mind and body accepted this new situation as the new normal. Habits developed, I settled down and in, and 7 months flew by INSANELY fast.
My first term is over. I learned: how to do a posturology chart; how to massage a human-being who was not related to me (:P); all the muscles of the neck and shoulder and where they attach, how they are innervated, what function they do, why they hurt, and how to assist with alleviating the hurt; how to study, learn, and retain loads of information; how to write a medical research paper; the very basics of lymph drainage, Thai massage, reflexology, etc. It was a total fire-house situation, which no doubt contributed to the perception that the time just absolutely FLEW by.
But, not only was this past 7 months filled with academic learning, it was also filled with a lot of spiritual growth. I think these two journeys are really rail-road tracks traveling alongside each other. I needed each one of these rails into order to make it here to 03/17/18.
I ended up making the decision to come to this school because I felt as if the Universe was guiding me here. Well, I think “felt” is not the exact word. My mind observed certain events that suspiciously looked as if they could be “signs.” I started seeing a yoga therapist/psychologist in mid 2016 because I KNEW I was not not happy; I was not living my purpose. But I was too overwhelmed by options and fear to see a path forward. I had read books and the blogs and listened to the teachers who said, “Ask the Universe for what you want, and it will answer you.” But I didn’t really believe it, and when I tried, it didn’t seem to work. I received no CLEAR answers. So I got professional help. On my first visit, my therapist had me write down my intention. I wrote, “I will find my purpose and live it fearlessly.”
A couple of days later, I discovered the Center for Neurosomatic Studies. I devoured all the info on their site, barely taking a breath because I was so excited about what I was reading – this was precisely what I was looking for!
Anyway, a lot of synchronicities/coincidences/signs like that continued to happen over the next 4 weeks or so. My closest friend and my therapist were both like, “Duh, Heather. You asked for a sign. You’re being assaulted by them. Listen!” So eventually I listened, not because I really FELT that taking this step was my “divine purpose” though. It was more because academically, I could see that there seemed to be some sort of cause-effect relationship in place. My insides did NOT feel like disrupting my predictable life and destabilizing my existence. But my brain was like, “You asked for signs. Signs were given. You’ve been down that old road, Neo. You know where it goes, and you know that’s where you don’t want to be.” So I chose the new road.
Early on in the semester, one of teachers recommended “Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself.” The book, in a super tiny nutshell, teaches that we are all co-creators with the Universe, and if we can identify behaviors that are no longer serving us and then envision and FEEL into a future state where we ARE who we want to be, then the Universe will make it happen. The author explains all this using quantum science – all potentials exist simultaneously, and we can influence which version of reality we want by entangling our thoughts (and their energy) to the scenario we really want.
I read the book, did the writing exercises, and did the meditations. And weird shit starting happening. I started to feel the way I wanted to feel. Things that I wanted to happen started to happen. I started to see repeating numbers all the time: 888, 111, 222, 444, 555, 777. They popped up so often that I started reading about the meaning of these numbers. Basically they all indicate the following: the Universe is helping you, be present, you are fully supported, trust that you are exactly where you need to be, you are here to co-create with the Universe, trust your choices, stay positive, you are interacting in perfect synchronicity with the Universe, the world is yours; shine bright and light up the night.
So it has been a really, really interesting 7 months. As you can see from previous posts, there have been lots of challenges and a few trips into the depths of despair and doubt. But there is no light without the dark, right? I am looking forward to seeing what this new term will bring – new knowledge, new people, new experiences, new opportunities, new awakenings.
As I feared, I did not get around to discussing how I learned to study again. That will have to be another post. I need to get off my butt because it’s falling asleep. And I know it’s time to WAKE UP!!
Hope you have a most excellent day!